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I made this one because I was inspired while listening to Incubus song Stellar;

“Meet me in outer space
I will hold you close
If you’re afraid of heights
I need you to see this place
It might be the only way
That I can show you how it feels to be inside of you.”


I made another version of this one in which I used in my previous post. This is my interpretation of Dishwalla’s song Every Little Thing.

Reference credited to the owner

“I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

Don’t give me up
don’t give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted.”


School of Fish and The Virtual Contradiction

“Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to, be govern’d by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound – for we all live underground.” (excerpt from the chorus)


Virtual Insanity” is the second single by British funk/acid jazz band Jamiroquai. It was released as the second single from their third studio album, Travelling Without Moving (1996), on 19 August 1996. The song’s award-winning music video was released in September 1996. “Virtual Insanity” was a number-one hit in Italy and reached number 3 on the UK Singles Chart. Peaking within the top 10 in Finland and Ireland, the song also peaked at number 38 on the Billboard Modern Rock Tracks chart upon the single’s release in America in 1997.



A Canadian philosopher once said that people nowadays are like fish. He pointed out that society now is overly drawn to the media, particularly on the social media and television (advertising media). He said that  most people are swallowing and swallowing on what is all around them, and basically just doing their own thing. He added that those types of people when they are brought out of the water, will find hard to breathe; but when at the time that they are in the water, they didn’t think about the idea of breathing at all. It is because our world today is surrounded by media, wherever we go we can always find them on TV, internet, radio programs, print ads, malls, etc…. All these types of media saturation played the biggest part of our life that we do not even question. That made the most people numb and dumb. The influenced that it gave, and in terms of how it impacted to each life. The idea of mass merchandising, in which we don’t see that we are totally consumed by it. Most advertisers basically loss the ideas and meanings that causes the unintended consequences to the consuming public.

In addition, the song Virtual Insanity really predicted it. Imagine that the song was written for almost twenty years ago. Virtual insanity of reality indeed.

“Only to be told
I can’t see
I can’t breathe
No more will we be
And nothing’s going to change the way we live
Cos’ we can always take but never give
And now that things are changing for the worse,
See, it’s a crazy world we’re living in
And I just can’t see that half of us immersed in sin
Is all we have to give these -”  Virtual Insanity verse two

People mostly keep comparing themselves to those celebrity endorsers, and more often they try to imitate the lifestyle of what their icon had made in their lives.  Changes come from innovations, and that the message it brings changes the patterns of most people’s real existence. People became more extinct to the reality. The reality of how to live life with their own identity. They always mirror themselves to them without realizing that their life becomes meaningless. Sad but true, the media taught people on how to be a narcissist. The unintended consequence that brings negative influence that resulted in self amputations. The icons of our life became the extension, but if it gives a positive impact, then it is not a self amputation. The amputations of life are the negativity within us.

Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs a theory about human motivation might be applied. His theory explains the human innate curiosity. If these basic principles will be applied, there’s a probability that it can really motivate us on how to live our life properly. His theory has five levels, he said, to be able to have a fully motivated life; we must achieve the four basic levels first (Physiological, Safety, Love/Belonging, and Self Esteem/self respect). If we can achieve it, then “self-actualization” the final level in which is known as the full realization–that every individual has all the potential that he/she can, and becomes the only person that can be. Establishing our own unique identity, that we are who we are that deserves to be respected.

The virtual reality must not be the reason for losing our sanity. We must always give respect and love for our  physical existence, and the virtual world must be used as our tool to communicate with other humans in a positive way; to spread the love, respect, unity and peace in the world we lived in.


“The only fence against the world is a thorough knowledge of it.”

-John Locke

One of the most influential thinkers when it comes to the enlightenment of mind is John Locke, he is part of the group of thinkers that I looked up with. He is considered as the “Father of Liberalism” because of his political philosophies and his contributions to the social contract theory. The theory which includes the questions of the existence of society and the legitimacy of the given authority to a certain individual. Being part of the 17th-century modern day philosophy, John Locke the English philosopher during the “Age of Enlightenment” has played a major contribution to the theories of mind. In his theory, he cited that at the time we had our physical existence, our minds have a zero knowledge or simply empty. He also cited the modern day conceptions of our self and identity. In addition, he also emphasized that knowledge can be acquired through our life experiences that comes from our own understanding of it. He basically contradicted the idea of preexisting concepts as he was referring to the innate ideas that we are not born with.

John Locke’s idea of introspection and the idea of finding our truest self are the basic principles that we can apply to our life. Finding our own self identity is probably hard if we practice the fixed mindset values. Modern day psychologist Carol Dweck explained that in order for us to gain  more knowledge we must bear that growth mindset characteristic. The ability to accept failures and allowing the failures to correct us and by connecting all the dots of failures plus our own experiences will definitely lead us to a well-deserved life. A life that has a set of predetermined goals for us to be able to succeed.

Learning new things is not hard if we have the attitude of  having self-determination, a key factor that will drive us to whatever things that gives us the best interest in our life. If we have enough knowledge, it will be our tool to discover new things and probably answers the questions on what we had in our life. The best way to ponder the questions of our existence can be achieved by isolating ourselves alone as they said. By being alone we are able to rationalized all the things  and understand our truest purposed in this beloved chaotic world.

Our day to day living is always a challenge for us and that is the substantial reality. In the society that I lived the people always have the idea of misconception because the only knowledge that they have is mostly based on the physical aspects of a person. Their judgment are commonly based for what they hear and for what they see, without even finding the enough reasons to prove it and that’s the saddest part. We can basically connect that kind of idea in relation to what we tend to perceived on how ugly the caterpillar is. Right from that perspective we tend to become judgmental because reality checks and reality bites; the metamorphosis of an ugly caterpillar will always surprise us because we tend to forget that the beautiful butterfly was once an ugly caterpillar.

It is infinitely true that life will always encounter the various struggles and hardships but if we have the ability to handle it, life can be easy. The sense of humiliation that I got became the seeds that I grew towards my journey to the creativity world.  It is actually a weird thing on why I am interested into the arts of the creativity world. To be honest, I have no freakin’ idea on how to draw portraits before. It was a school activity dedicated to Mother Ignacia Del Espiritu Santo (from my catholic school in high school) where students from each section, freshmen to senior must have a representative to draw her. By means and by virtue of my classmates because nobody wants to do their share talent, I was randomly picked to play the artist shit of the day. Well, I always loved challenges because I want to learn more. Winning is not an option for me because I knew I couldn’t even draw her fuckin’ portrait. I end up having a stick figure drawing of her portrait and basically having the deepest blank stare at their wonderful portrait drawings. The contest had ended and by the virtue of the committee they displayed all the art pieces including my abstract stick figure-doodle like portrait which became the center of humiliation and from that instance I started to asked myself, what more can I do? From then on every notebook that I had always had a drawing of a person, I kept on doing my thing doodling while the boring teachers had their discussions. It continued up until my college days but it was just a formed of diversion when the topic is uninteresting. Only when I became a note taker that I poured out my attention to practice more on drawings of portraits. The job that I have taught me more because I was exposed mostly on the arts and humanities subject that was assigned to me. It’s a free education job that’s the best thing that I can be proud of. More and more practice until I hit the techniques on my own.

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Moreover, the wonderful job that I landed also developed my interest in poetry. Blamed the “Brutus Defense” when I was in my third grade. We are assigned to memorize the speech and present it to the class, unfortunately the tongued-twisted and empty stare happened because I couldn’t move on to the next part. Definitely it was the start of the spark to my interest in writing poetry. My style of writing is somewhat labelled as contemporary because the old tradition style is still retained. Words of rhythm and harmony and the basic quatrain. My idea is more deliberately  story telling and sometimes a made up character but basically based on my own experiences (love, family, relationship, struggles, victory etc.). As they said, blessed are the poets for they are blessed with divine thoughts in which if we traced back the history there are parts of the bible with poetry and prose, if I am not mistaken the Psalms and the Songs of David has it. At first I was very shy to share but what the fuck? not everybody has it and it is something very rare and very important that can be share to the world to help the other people understand what life truly means and how great it is to be part of the creative world.

I am not a good writer or an artist, I admit. But the fact that I can do both without proper education is enough for me to tell my kids that we “as a human” is capable of doing everything if we persevere to learn and love every inch of our vested interest. That’s the beauty of learning new knowledge.

Digital Age doesn’t mean that we will isolate ourselves, but instead we must be able to learn to adapt the new changes in the world and it can be achieve by our ability to do multitasking. The ability not to master a single craft but the ability of learning new craft. Right, from the steering wheel of a heavy equipment into handling a pen or a pencil. Who would have thought that a heavy equipment operator can be at the same time a poet and a portrait maker? Nobody. But because of my willingness to learn more then I am able to do more beyond my capacity that other people thought I can’t do it.

We are born with a purpose and let us stop wondering why the great Leonardo Da Vinci has it. He just used his intellectual knowledge to challenged himself that he can do more beyond his own limitations and eventually to show us that we are indeed capable of being creative if we are willing to learn and willing to discover new things in life. Keep believing you can do it and once again never doubt your instinct. He is such a big inspiration for me and to remind you he is an illegitimate son too like me.

In every failure we are able to learn.